stoned and drunk

2006-04-12T17:12:00.000+08:00

tell me something

wad was the thing u're most proud of in ur life?

jacking off?

being an asshole?

self-denial?

u've got to speak up man, cant really hear u.

either way,

i know it's an answer with 'confidence' pasted all over.

ha.

ok.

next question.

how low will u stoop?

shit i'm getting bored already.....

COME ON! U CAN DO BETTER!!!

right...?

wad?

oh gosh....i regret this conversation.

anyway, my turn.

i'll own ur ass any day in ANY aspect.

tt's a FUCK U for u.

give up.face it.now.

if i were u, i wont dare look in the mirror EVERY morning.

2006-04-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

son of a bitch

u really think so?

8?

look who's talking.

i aint the lonely one.

cut-throat rage

limitless drive

u'd better watch out.

2006-03-22T13:55:00.000+08:00

reranagring

dserinicng

shifty figures beyond the smog

imperative that i must clear up this mess

celuelss

ednlses enmiga

forever?

whisper the answer over my shoulder

2006-03-16T12:54:00.000+08:00

haha

i juz made a interesting discovery!

http://www.alvron.com/dysfunct.htm

hold ur horses and keep that window open

noteworthy points:
1. punk. need i say more?
2. the drummer's wasting his talent, he's better off in a metal band!

(i've heard they keep the bassist in the band cos he's the one who manages their website)

2006-03-15T19:38:00.000+08:00

i suppose it's ok to scream now...

sing me something new

friend or foe?

i dun know.

2006-03-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

this week passed a bit too fast for me.

ns thingy is catching up with me

enlistment should be in april 07

there're no options ~~left anymore~~

fucking bitch

watch ur words

no one asked for ur opinion

neither is it valued

we are labelled indivuals for a reason

ppl like u DIVIDE others into grps

yes

nothing more than a figment of ur imagination

open ur eyes, shut up and u'll see

some things are harder to control than wad it seems.

p.s. - did i mention u suck already?

abt time u faced the music.

2006-03-02T21:25:00.000+08:00

groping my way back to the bottom of the rock i crawled out from.

they should make education scarce

in tt way all students would be scholars.

2006-02-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

long time since i've blogged.

too many things to blog down one by one (do i ever do tt in the first place??)

anyway

here are the gists

found lotsa new metal bands

got a medal for coming in top 50 in the road run (cross country)

got my new (marshall avt 50) amp

planning on getting a custom pedal board

relearnt the meaning of 'hating a teacher'

distinguished between classmates and friends

replaced my phone with the n70

nope.....

doesnt mean things are looking up.

2006-02-10T21:08:00.000+08:00

past week was full of poop.

road run next fri.

i hate all tt city harvest stands for.

dun miss the next bus k?

2006-01-30T00:09:00.000+08:00

tired.

nites.

i wish.

2006-01-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

haha....

it aint injustice when there's only one victim.

2006-01-23T15:28:00.000+08:00

so far...

2 people tell me i think too much after a bus ride conversation.

tt's wicked man.

half an hour? tt obvious?

gosh.

i hate politics.

stress is amounting (STOP) lately now tt the tests are abt to end

i guess (I MEAN IT) they wanna bypass the cny hols.

u think too much.

2006-01-20T21:31:00.000+08:00

met the dumbest shit(people) today

no no....

u need to know me
not vice versa, bitch.

wad? u're not supposed to come.....AND it because of.....

shut the fuck up and get out.

2006-01-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

argh damn it

fuck the fucking tag board la.

anyway
i shant comment much.

been wondering whether this blog should go too.

If there was a single day I could live...
a single breath I could take
I'd trade all the others away.

The blood's on the wall, so you'd might as well just admit it
And bleach out the stains, commit to forgetting it.
You're better off empty and blank
than left with a single pathetic trace of this

Smother another failure, lay this to rest.

Console yourself, you're better alone
Destroy yourself, see who gives a fuck
Absorb yourself, you're better alone
Destroy yourself.

I'll chain you to the truth
for the truth shall set you free
I'll turn the screws of vengeance and bury you with honesty
I'll make all your dreams come to life
then slay them as quickly as they came

Smother another failure, lay this to rest.

Console yourself, you're better alone
Destroy yourself, see who gives a fuck
Absorb yourself, you're better alone
Destroy yourself, see who gives a fuck.

Failure.

If there was a day I could live
if there was a single breath I could take
I'd trade all the others away.
I'd trade all the others away.

lamb of god - laid to rest

2006-01-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

dumb shits
u do know everything, dun u?

no one will stop me this time.

2006-01-07T13:05:00.000+08:00

many issues, very little time.

sometimes, i love the taxi driver.

i'd call him the taxi-man.

they tell me things i've nvr heard of.

among all, i love this the best:

'wadever u do, have a contingency plan.'

amen.

2005-12-16T20:00:00.000+08:00

i'm back!

stupid re-exams finally over.
come to think abt it, it aint tt bad.
at least i get to study during the hols.

ANYWAY.

back to wad i should be doing.

before i start,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENIA/LEAD-VOCALIST!!!
haha.
happy 17th!

i'm leaving for hk tml
gonna shop and make maximum use of the exchange rate.
muahahahaha.

grad nite is in 2 weeks time
given the choice, i wont go for the trip
need to time to jam and...jam.
speaking of jamming, today's jamming was gooood!
pleasant surprise.

today was hectic though
went round town to get all my guit stuff
I'VE GOT THE DIMEBUCKERS!!!
heh.
going to place them in the bridge along with my V's invaders.
killer combination
crystal warm clean notes
harsh aggressive metal tone
not to forget - the icing on the cake - line 6's uber metal!
now tt's a cool setup :P

all those travelling is taking a toll on me
feeling darn shagged now
not to mention i lugged my guit around today for the whole time after jamming.

before i forget, i should be updating regularly after the 22nd.

yup.

see u around!

2005-11-15T18:02:00.000+08:00

hey all fellow carbon-based life forms (wadeva.)

i wont be blogging till the end of nov so....

do me a favour by tagging weird stuff :P

take care! try not to die so young! :)

anyway.

this is my last post till....then.

came across this:

1. You get one wish of anything, what would u ask for?

i wish i could be a machine. so i can go on and on and on day and night....doing things la! wad were u thinking?? :P

2. What animal would u be?

um. a snake? (slither slither went the 'vmniue' =X)

3. Something u want to do in your life.

perform ~~black~~ metal on a stage. i figured if i could even pull metal off in front of a punk rock crowd tt would be good enough...

4. One time there were these Ninjas....(complete the story):

who had long shiny dai-katanas tt i was so jealous of. they can even throw ~~shooting~~ stars! HAHAHAAHAHA

5. One song u could listen to over and over again:

pantera - cowboys from hell.

6. Coke or pepsi?

i dunno wad to say for this. i like both.

7. Something u really desire:

someone get me a 7 string ibanez.

8. What's a mastoid? (no peeking in the dictionary!)

a robot who jerks off? (masturbating + droid???)

9. One good deed u've done lately.

i introduced one to metal = roping in one from the mainstream crowd! *sniggers...*

10. A funny moment in ur life:

when i get drunk. juz watch. =D

2005-11-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

somewhat boring.

boring? did i just say boring?

feeling bored?

FEELING bored?

wad is it with humans and emotions?
besides the fact tt we are bound by them?

i love him.

2005-11-10T20:58:00.000+08:00

quote unquote fellow meister:
it happens to the best of us.

wad do u think?

when we were young
we look up
and wonder why things happen.

when we were smack right in the middle
we look up
then down
and we cant wait to go up

when we're finally up high
we look down
and miss the point of it all.

i mean.

dun we all say one thing and mean another
masks after masks
found the vault but lost the key
impregnable?
conform?
if not, then wad?

i wonder if....
we could purchase redemption
we could save our souls
there was a place up there so big to keep the sick the old and the aged.

go ahead.

bite me.

i wont ask for a sword and a shield to smite evil
i definitely wont get down on my knees
with or without,

i'm tired.
why?
tried running up the wall too many times.
i need rest.
oh u need rest too?
dun look at me, we are called individuals for various reasons
and this is one of them.

2005-11-09T14:33:00.000+08:00

u all dun give a shit.

wad are u talking abt?

see.

ok ok. tell me wad's on ur mind.

hmm....u dun give a shit?

then wad if i were to give a shit?

well...to begin....tt's something fresh...

wad are u expecting then?!?

juz a little more i guess.

a little? u got to be more specific than tt.

i cant possibly ask anything from u.

i dun understand.

u nvr do, do u?

wad in the world are u talking abt?? i dun get u....u are speaking in riddles!

SO BE IT.

2005-11-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

argh
reality plays me like a broken puppet

2005-11-03T21:25:00.000+08:00

today wasnt too bad
was thinking a tad too much though
it hurts sometimes
i emphasise on the word sometimes

stumbled upon the weirdest piece of news so far:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20051103/ap_on_sc/india_frolicking_fossils
haha.

can u imagine??

"oooo....ooooo...OOO- "

wadeva. :P

it's been sometime since i saw ng.
they bought the apartment next door
synergy(the coaching company sharing aspire hub with us now)
is going to move into the apartment.
and they are going to do up the tuition centre(finally!)
since the first time i was there, it's still a dilapidated shack.
learnt trigo
not too bad.

reached home tired.

trying to lvl up...but i dunno how long i can last

anyway

i'm off to maple!
gonna have fun at sentosa with joe and company
:D
cheers!
u werent silent today:))))

2005-11-02T20:33:00.000+08:00

ouch

2005-10-30T22:02:00.000+08:00

fucking bro
u stay at home more often than me
yet u dunno wad to press correctly
causing a black-out
which turned my com off
wiping away my unsaved docs.
ass.

a level chinese tml.
um.
not scared?

anyway
new blog song
i cant believe i'm putting nu-metal up
but oh well.

enjoy

2005-10-29T21:35:00.000+08:00

i happened to chance upon a surprising (and rather pleasant) piece of info last nite
take a look:

HA!
the last time i checked
they were classified under 'rock'.
tt's so pussy man.
at least they got it straight
btw their new album is coming out on nov 1
i'll be there to get it :)
kings of industrial metal.

anyway

juz got back from swimming training
did 1k of butterfly
killer delts training
not to mention my quads are already half dead by the end of yesterday(after tkd)
now they 100% certified dead.

oh

and i still have to run tml.

damn.
do take care ur life is more impt than me

2005-10-28T21:30:00.000+08:00

major revamps in tkd
those who dun appear next training, listen.
i'll kick u out of tkd myself.
u'll juz have to find out when is it URSELF

as for U
i'll kick u in the head at the rate u're going
better make sure u play by my rules
arrogant bastard

if only i brought my track shoes
i would have ran 3 more rounds
damn

ms zhang told me to spike my hair on the actual day.
wad made her think i wont? :P
either way i have many zany costume ideas in my mind
oracion still tug at my heartstrings
it's been some time...
tell me in my face again the reason u left

give me a good reason to go back to church
how foolish i was to admire those leading worship
how inane i was to think i could be like tt
not anymore.

fuck u is the magic word.

2005-10-27T18:33:00.000+08:00

starting to learn new things on my guit
so i've decided to learn guit again
fortunately i have friends to teach me theory
hate those fucking staves
need to show tt crap-ass band a thing or 2 anyway
other than power chords

dun come crawling to me telling me they are barre chords.

chinese sucks(x)!
A lvl chinese is next mon
i wish there were parameters
maybe a hint would do?

i need to drop by the gym some time soon
before my chest becomes real boobs

if only i could be a machine
void of emotion and sleep would be redundant.

2005-10-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

i'm tired.

and confused.

too many things happening to me.

anyway
i uploaded a new song
turn them speakers up!
i have another shot in life again so i'll make use of it
since i'll do everything well before grad nite

2005-10-20T00:14:00.000+08:00

Temporal transition.
Grinding emphasis.
Eject the reject.

Now you've got something to die for.
Infidel, Imperial
Lust for blood, a blind crusade
Apocalyptic, we count the days.
Bombs to set the people free, blood to feed the dollar tree
Flags for coffins on the screen, oil for the machine
Army of the liberation, gunpoint indoctrination
The fires of sedition
Fulfill the prophecy.
Now you've got something to die for.
Send the children to the fire, sons and daughters stack the pyre
Stoke the flame of the empire, live to lie another day
Face of hypocrisy, raping democracy
Apocalyptic, we count the days.
We'll never get out of this hole until we've dug our own grave
And drug the rest down with us, the burning home of the brave
Burn.
Now you've got something to die for.

lamb of god - now you've got something to die for

2005-10-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

it's only a matter of time....

fuck u all dun talk to me till u know wad's going on
anyway, i dun need u all when the time comes

2005-10-16T22:48:00.000+08:00

i hear the voices of the dark angels descending

i have a few more barriers to clear.
after tt.
i'm a free man.
to be exact i have 1..no 2 more.
muahahaha

i'm sorry, pls dun blame me.

The charlatans and deceivers walk the line in prejudice
The narrow slits the veins in search for the crown
Profound impatience makes the blind struggle in stupidity
The paradox of the daily prayer, diffidence is Confiteor
Phenomena of ironies, cast the litany aside
How intelligible, blessed be the forgetful

(chorus) dimmu borgir - hybrid stigmata - the apostasy

2005-10-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

i pissed joe off instead of comforting him.
cindy wont talk to me anymore.
junie's darn irritated with me.
parents think i'm hopeless.
tkd sucks now(and i'm in charge.).
i doubt i can see my friends next year.
God forsaked me.

u know what?

joe: go find another running buddy.
cindy: i leave the choice entirely up to u.
junie: forgive me.
parents: .....
tkd: find a new president quick!
God: at least tell me why...

"The Moon, she hangs like a cruel portrait
soft winds whisper the bidding of trees
as this tragedy starts with a shattered glass hear
tand the Midnightmare trampling of dreams

But no, no tears please
Fear and pain may accompany Death
But it is desire that shepherds it's certainty
as We shall see..."

She was divinity's creature
That kissed in cold mirrors
A Queen of Snow
Far beyond compare
Lips attuned to symmetry
Sought Her everywhere
Dark liqoured eyes
An Arabian nightmare...

She shone on watercolours
Of my pondlife as pearl
Until those who couldn't have Her
Cut Her free of this World
That fateful Eve when...
The trees stank of sunset and camphor
Their lanterns chased phantoms and threw
An imquisitive glance, like the shadows they cast
On my love picking rue by the light of the moon

Putting reason to flight
Or to death as their way
They crept through woods mesmerized
By the taffeta Ley
Of Her hips that held sway
Over all they surveyed
Save a mist on the rise(A deadly blessing to hide)

Her ghost in the fog
They raped left...
(Five men of God)...
Her ghost in the fog

Dawn discovered Her there
Beneath the Cedar's stare
Silk dress torn, Her raven hair
Flown to gown
Her beauty bared
Was starred with frost, I knew Her lost
I wept 'til tears crept back to prayer

She'd sworn Me vows in fragrant blood
"Never to part
Lest jealous Heaven stole our hearts"

Then this I screamed:"Come back to Me
I was born in love with thee
So why should fate stand inbetween?"

And as I drowned Her gentle curves
With dreams unsaid and final words
I espied a gleam trodden to earth
The Church bell tower key...

The village mourned her by the by
For She'd been a witch
Their Men had longed to try
And I broke under Christ seeking guilty signs
My tortured soul on ice

A Queen of snow
Far beyond compare
Lips attuned to symmetry
Sought Her everywhere
Trappistine eyes
An Arabian nightmare...

She was Ersulie possessed
Of a milky white skin
My porcelain Yin
A graceful Angel of Sin

And so for Her...
The breeze stank of sunset and camphor
My lantern chased Her phantom and blew
Their Chapel ablaze and all locked in to a pain
Best reserved for judgement that their bible construed...

Putting reason to flight
Or to flame unashamed
I swept form cries
Mesmerized
By the taffeta Ley
Or Her hips that held sway
Over all those at bay
Save a mist on the rise
A final blessing to hide
Her ghost in the fog

And I embraced
Where lovers rot...

Her ghost in the fog

Her ghost in the fog.

cradle of filth - her ghost in the fog

farewell, i have nothing left in this mortal world

:)

2005-07-12T00:16:00.000+08:00

yay!
tests are finally over.
things are starting to get better....once again.

lets go back....

Sat

something good finally happened....

:))

Sun

decided to go study with cindy and junie at holland v
it started to rain when i was on my way
i was actually going to buona to renew my concession pass...
but....
the ticketing office was closed on sun.
tt was really dumb so i had to top up 5 bucks
at my own expense -_-

took 74 from buona into holland v
after i reached...
whoa
i guess theres always a first time for everything.
and it always interesting to see classmates in "going-out gear"

hai

talked more than we studied
(if u think we didnt study..u are wrong..read properly)
i pity **
he was juz trying his best
to go after the heart
of the person of his dreams.
misguided poor boy keeps sending the wrong signals.
btw....thx cindy and junie
now i am more aware....

exchanged stories of horror...
:))
shall not elaborate. =p

after study session
took a bus down to queensway with cindy
reached friggin early this time
say...650?
helped kenneth rick and myself to get dinner
hong kong noodles
honestly
i have nvr thought tt hong kong noodles could serve as good dinner.
well..i guess i thought wrong. =X

surprised tt darrell wasnt going for tuition
left without a companion.
nvm...tt was rather secondary.

by the time i reached home..
PHEW
bloody shagged.
i think i didnt do much besides slacking...
then sleep.

pray for my 2 tests tml.
maths and chem.

Mon

today's the day

argh

darrell looked so damn glum in the morning
i thought i did something wrong
turns out..i did.
sorry man.

after chem i felt much better
at least they didnt ask so many tough questions
:)))
got this gut feeling tt pw lecture would be bloody boring....
turns out i was wrong again!
damn......haha.
had this stupid animal personality test
whahahaha
everyone was counting on peny to be a peacock...
darrell and i even had a bet.
he took the peacock and the dove
i took the owl and the eagle.
if peny's char were to fall in either the peacock or the dove..
i would have to pay for darrell's gym towel.
if her char were to fall in either the owl or the eagle..
darrell owes me a drink.
turns out....
she got the same score for the dove and the owl!
HAHA
so we called off the bet.

went down to clementi with cindy junie and peny
to continue our enlightening conversation
haha
boy
arent we mean.

met up with darrell once again..
went straight to sunset way
to get my much needed haircut
cos darrell and his fren decided not to gym.

cool saloon
at least the stylist is at least:
10 times more experienced,
20 times more professional,
and 30 times more posh
than my previous hair stylist.

such deft strokes
punctuated with dexterity and confidence
tt gave my 18 bucks feet to walk out of my wallet
the moment i reached home...
my maid said the haircut looks good=p
yay!

juz woke up not long ago
finished my gp hmwk
and here i am.

looking forward to the coming sun
tts the only permanent study time i have tt is long and uninterupted

i need more metal music
every thing's getting boring
but i still like dream theater's octavarium
kicks solid metal ass.

talking abt metal
slipknot's coming to town!
hehe
i wouldnt mind going for the concert if i had the time and the money
but then again...
arent there lotsa things
tt we are restricted mainly by:
time
and money?

nites ppl....
off to workout
then sleep.

:)

2005-07-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

HA.
its mine now.
:)

ARGH..
sometimes i wish u could grow up more quickly..
my expectations would naturally decrease
and u could be doing more things for us.
not me. not urself.
but us.

2005-07-07T17:42:00.000+08:00

i am so disappointed with u.

i seriously doubt it..dun ask me why.

2005-07-06T18:39:00.000+08:00

i need a little encouragement
a little motivation
and juz a bit more expression.

it's difficult to bring myself
to accept it the way it is
its not as if u are bad.

i will help u achieve ur dreams....
only if u allow me to.

sucks big time.

guess i am feeling in the dumps again.

Absence diminishes mediocre passions and increases great ones,
as the wind extinguishes candles and fans fire.

-La Rouchfoucauld

2005-07-05T22:55:00.000+08:00

AAARRR
i am so so sorry
i should have thought about it twice.
stupid me

to u a simple joke it's harmless
but to ....
u darn bugger
juz like to spoil everyone's day dont u
damn u
can u juz wake up?!?

i wish i could take back my words
cos they're as sharp as a razor blade
cuts deep
very deep.
i dunno wad else to say except tt i am sorry.

feeling bloody upset with myself and too shagged to continue blogging now.

tired

2005-07-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

......
my right knee still hurts whenever i run for a long time
sucks man
look like a bloody limp
at this rate
my calves would be improportionate.

damn.

watched supersize me!
gosh.
i promise i will think twice
before placing tt yummy big mac in....
speaking abt big macs.....
theres this guy featured in the film
who has eaten 19000 big macs!
tts a load of shit man!
AAWWW
u have to watch the rest urself :)

woke up at 1230 today
cos of last night.
not feeling too well
love has its vices too.

sometimes i wish having a relationship
doesnt involve the emotions.
the emotion bit's a chore.
juz tt part.
"i feel...."
"it hurts..."
i bet u must be saying:
"wads a relationship without emotions?(or something of tt sort)"
yeah...i agree totally.

something's gonna happen on tues
and only a special someone knows
haven told anyone else.
:))

mapled for the whole day..
then proceeded to read jeffrey archer's new book
prison diaries!
YAY!
i love his books.
and his witty writing sense.
he was sentenced to four years in prison..
and decided to write a book out of it.
smart bastard.
tts not the best thing...
the book's in three parts!
bugger!

secrets....secrets.
too many so far.
i think i am going to have a breakdown soon.
having secrets is one thing
keeping them as it is is another.
i hate the second part
i wish there's a ~~secret storing~~ secret-storing database....
somewhere. or soon.

or may be i juz cant pin point the source of stress.
its getting on my nerves.

will start earlier for the maths and chem test the week after.
which is say...next week.
no more last min stuff
i cant afford to get retained.
too much to lose....

cant wait for mon.
but i think the lecturers are planning their make-up lessons furiously.
hai
i shouldnt be giving a damn for now.

ooooo

2005-06-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

part 2

batman rocks!
if u are sitting in ur seat...
and u have been playing maple the whole day...
get up!
go watch!
not a bit disappointing.
:)

u fucking twerp
snoop around my room
even after i lend my amp to u
bitch
i bet u overdid the volume
and deppreciated the value in the process
"mr know-a-lot"
can u ACT like u have received education on manners and privacy
fucker.

i wish...i wish...shut up.

2005-06-30T15:00:00.000+08:00

precious moments cease to be

aiyah...

2005-06-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

sooner or later....sooner or later.

justin didnt come to school today
was looking real bad when i last saw him yesterday
down with a 38 deg fever....darn
i know how he feels
i doubt he is coming to sch tml too
if he is not.....
then he will miss
1. Chem SPA trials
2. Bio tut on photosynthesis

yup
tts all the impt stuff we have in the day.
prac is uber-duper impt
miss one...and u come back another day for 2 hrs
believe me when i say 2hrs doing prac is a long long time.

there was pc(pe) yesterday
we did pull ups after stupid warm up exercises
why stupid?
we get to smell each other's sweat.
tts gross man.
derrick was on my left and yi fan on my right
tts armageddon.
wont elaborate on my good fren.
(not frenS)

asked the stupid bastard how to improve in standing broad jump
he started shooting me saying its a class we do things together....
wadeva.
as if i dont have eyes.
was juz asking a simple question.
u could jolly well give me a simple answer.

when we reached the standing broad jump area
he diverted us into the gym
and gave us a lecture on muscle fitness.
gosh.
i have been gymming for how long already!
he was like teaching the noobs how to fit the key in.
"first, u either twist the key to the left or the right..."
wa lau.
i think guys who nvr been to a gym before
is going to have serious problems in the army
which is...not to far away.

then he finallywent back out to the standing broad jumps
made everyone jump at least once
and started yelling at those who couldnt jump far enough
"you must (this this this) and take note of (that that that)..."
even my mum doesnt yell so much.
came to a freaking conclusion
i juz need to do frog jumps now
to train the lower body strength.

anyway...
ser ping (or serping) joined us for prac today
and at the same time was wondering where junie went
then i realised after the prac tt junie went back early
cos of a fever
and ser ping didnt come to sch yesterday.
wad a coincidence.
so...naturally..like diffusion...ser ping took junie's seat.
i tell u
i bet she felt like she was sticking out like a sore thumb

received my tkd proposal on the mats already
um
i have to say
the language could be more persuasive
and
there are many incorrect SVAs.
(subject verb agreements)
going to ask ee chuang whether i can edit the proposal

i was asked the stupidest question

"why didnt we have a tkd outing during the hols?"

my blood started to boil...
my heart wanted to say:

"because all u mother-fu**ing ppl dun even come for training!!
if i ever had an outing i would have to get down on my knees to beg!!"

but instead..i said:
"u all dun even come for training!!"

phew.

so much for self-control.

after sch i qiong-ed home with darrell.
freaking tired already la.
as i was walking out of the sch
my head was throbbing..
bad sign.
then lo and behold....we spotted A CHICKEN!
no not a duck but a CHICKEN!!!
haha
it was pecking around the grass outside on the patch of the grass
outside the garbage dump.
haha
we got busy with our camera phones :)
"woah...jj is really a kampong ah!"
*wild whooping laughter*

things are starting to become rather weird in jj
ppl's attitudes.
teachers attitudes.
"the one" suddenly became so friendly
asked us whether we done this or done tt.
giving me and darrell the creeps.

tell me something....
have u been forsakened before?

ouch.

2005-06-29T01:02:00.000+08:00

gosh.

i brought this upon myself.

i had better quit my ranting and whinings.

throw me a life-buoy...pls?

2005-06-28T00:15:00.000+08:00

i think i need a miracle in my life
so i decided
i am going to ask for it.

Father in heaven

thx for bringing me so far
lighting my each and every step
thx for showing me the way
walking ahead before me
i am grateful for ur saving grace

Lord

i know u have a plan for me
everything happens for a reason
unveil the plan and open my eyes

i ask in ur most holy name
to bless all those taking the bio test tml
its going to be tough for the slackers
like me Lord
i know this is stupid to ask of u
but grant us strength
to stay awake but moreover alert throughout the test
so tt we may not make careless mistakes
grant us wisdom
so tt we may see the difference between right and wrong

i also pray u bless those toiling hard
everyone
anyone
give them the willpower and the determination to strive on
for they would eventually reap the fruits of their labour

all these things seem scarce now
but i know u are the only one who can make them abundant
for the ur glory
ur will
ur name
thank u Lord.

amen.

2005-06-26T01:14:00.000+08:00

having a KILLLER headache now
must be (the):
lack of sleep
too much stress
skipping too many meals

UURRGHHH

i wish it would juz go away.

slept at 730 last....morning!!
haha.
was playing maple story
when i logged off last night my char was lvl 15
now its....17.
now tt the killer headache has set in
i cant concentrate on playing
maybe all i need is a little metal....
who knows.

haven completed my hmwk yet
i have done bio
not maths
and gp.

hai.

but honestly.

i cant be bothered.....

theres lots to think abt before sch starts again...

urgghh...

2005-06-24T12:15:00.000+08:00

whheeeeeeee......

juz came back from tuition.
hmm
today was special.
got to see my sec 4 juniors
dunno them all but....
i still own their asses.
haha.

went to sch for:
1. bio lecture
2. gp test

bio lecture was stupid
mIsS eSTheR lEe finally finished her part on photosynthesis
there was this 'really hip' looking car as wallpaper on her com
typical.
so pretty....
yet mIsS.
it must have something to do with the car....

bio lecture part 2
'the one' took over
darrell joked she has the matrix wallpaper!
nice one.
"classs......let me tell u all abt a process using countries...
hmm....s for Singapore...l for London...
p for....um....Paris?*swings head around bimbotically*
1. London's a capital
2. Paris is ALSO a capital
when i entered the sch..
i tot she could speak good english.
but now...
u make me sick.

samantha got into cjc thru dsa
she told me she could choose nj
but she didnt.
wa lau..
ppl are dying to get in there la!

anyway...
i got this off a muscle fitness mag
tt mr ng gave darrell a few weeks ago
didnt rmb to blog it down
this gives 'corny' a new name:

"Never in recorded history - not even in the ancient fossil beds tt preceded it - has animality ever produced a specimen of such exponential growth as Ronnie Coleman, the 2003 edition. His 287 sound physique was a force of nature so awesome as to wreak psychological bloodshed thru out muscledom. So profound now is his dominance tt all competitors have willingly consigned themselves to nothing more than cats paws in his presence..."

wadeva man.
haha!

juz received the whole dt album from joe
six degrees.
hmm....
still like honor thy father
nope
i didnt spell it wrongly.

k ppl
i have to get going
still have things yet to be done.....

i wish i can be a machine...
without sleep
nor food
nor air.

2005-06-22T22:35:00.000+08:00

my head is burning
rage? passion? DEPRESSION?

argh!

why so......?
an answer is wad i seek.
understanding is wad i need.

i was left in a daze....

Part 2
received a call from andy
abt this choir performance on 25th July
gosh
the new com sux!
of all the ppl
dun give me the bullshit tt they changed
somethings juz dun change

came back from studying
at least i managed to get something into my head
cos i was left alone with:
FLYING cockroaches
STRAY cats
MAAT gangs hanging out
AH BENGS everywhere else the MAATS arent
and the BROKEN-HEARTED

i have my wksheets
and foolscap pad in front of me
wad else to do but study?

phew

yi fan: u juz may be right abt the 'addicting' part...
damn muggers.

i need to sleep early tonight
i have bio lecture first thing in the mornin at 8
followed by a loooooong wait
then GP common test
shouldnt be too hard
my four-hour-sleep-oxygen-deprived-brain juz needs more sleep
close to everything i see in the morning is fuzzy
clearly i need more sleep

fuck la...
i dun want to go back to sch
i am cool with learning
but schooling?
juz not my cup of tea.
or coffee.
wadeva.

restore me...pls..

2005-06-21T01:10:00.000+08:00

today.

had some quality time.

went for tuition later.
gosh
darrell!
i could use a companion!
sleepy head.
haha..

freaking tired la....

my phone's IR is screwed
wanted to upload some pics....
FORGET IT.

Every time that I look into the mirror
All these lines in my face getting clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dusk to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

Well, I know, nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got lose to know how to win

Half my life's in books' written pages
Lived and learned from fools and from sages
You know it's true, oh
All these things come back to you

Sing with me,
sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take it away
Hey-hey-hey

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take it away

Dream on, dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream comes true

Dream on, dream on, dream on, dream on
Dream on, dream on, dream on, dream on, oh

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take it away

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, just for today
Maybe tomorrow will pull out and take it away, yeah

ronnie james dio and yingwie malmsteen - dream on (tribute to aerosmith)

pls dun make me upset....

at least its better...

2005-06-19T16:45:00.000+08:00

another boring sunday morning
the coming week
also known as the last week of the sch hols..
i am going to study
and finish up my hol hmwk
cos i know i aint i am not able
to jump from hol mood into study mood

learnt alot from the past week.
hai
must learn to chill
must know.....
alot of things la.

damn tired
come to think of it
the holy bible is rather contradicting
dun u agree?
no?
picture this scenario:
parents let kid go to church
the church says the Lord loves a cheerful giver.
but the parents dont want their kid to give
so wad should the kid do?
follow the 10 commandments?
or spin lies?
i dunno man....

hai.

going for joe's gig later
its at the THIRD PLACE
the setup's quite cool
wont know abt the atmosphere though....
crazy goths and hardcore metalheads galore!
must be la....
all those death/thrash metal nonsense
hate these 2 divisions of metal.
hope i can go for supper with the rockers after tt
then we can sit around a small table..
talking abt BONSAI plants!
talking abt why bruce lee has to get so HIGH b4 fighting!!
HAHA!
i miss those times.
dearly.

i am still in my PJs now....
i cant be bothered to change out.
besides
i definitely/obviously/surely changing b4 i leave
EEEKS.

got a sudden urge to walk to the fridge....
and take out tt long-neck heineken bottle....
and let the bitter fluid run down my throat.
dunno la.

The faster we're falling
We're stopping and stalling
We're running in circles again
Just as things we're looking up
You said it wasn't good enough
But still we're trying one more time
Maybe we're just trying too hard
When really it's closer than it is too far

Cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under
Cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under
Instead of going under

Seems like each time
I'm with you I lose my mind
Because I'm bending over backwards to relate
It's one thing to complain
But when you're driving me insane
Well then I think it's time that we took a break
Maybe we're just trying too hard
When really it's closer than it is too far

Cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under
Cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under
Instead of going under
Instead of going under
Instead of going under

I can't sit back and wonder why
It took so long for this to die
And I hate it when you fake it
You can't hide it you might as well embrace it
So believe me it's not easy
It seems that something's telling me
I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under

Cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under
Instead of going under
Instead of going under again
Instead of going under
Instead of going under again
Instead of going under again
Instead of going under again.

sum 41 - into deep

talk to me....

2005-06-17T15:59:00.000+08:00

juz came back from tkd prac

todays session was damn boring
its like i only went there to receive a pass down briefing from wenqing
he gave me the equipment room key :)))
its like those kind of keys in shows to open prison cells
yeah complete with the olive handle
haha

marvellous.

so now i am the president.
juz like tt.
juz wondering wad justin may be feeling now....

justin: i am sorry man
i didnt want things to turn out this way
but its not my call
pls dun be affected by it

i feel so cheated sometimes
wonder how can i be thinking of u all the time
yet u didnt reply tt single msg
i had to call at 10 to know where u are
u had me worried sick

makes me feel so redundant
when the tone of ur voice
seems to say: i dun feel like talking to u now.
i miss the way u answer my phone calls
with tt chirpy voice i will nvr forget

i miss the old u.
the more cheerful u.

burn in hell for ur sins.....

2005-06-16T23:14:00.000+08:00

FUCKING MAATS!!!

HAVE TO STOOP DOWN TO THIS

LEVEL!!!!

ALL OF U ALL DESERVE TO

BURN IN HELL!!!

U ASK ME WHY AM I SO

PISSED??

COS I TOT THEY WERE JUZ

TALES...

AND IT WONT HAPPEN TO ME...

BUT MY QUIKSILVER SLIPPERS

GOT STOLEN!!!!

YES....

THE PAIR I RECEIVED

LAST CHRISTMAS....

BITCH!!

wad have i become?

2005-06-14T00:24:00.000+08:00

i wish there was something to alleviate the pain

make it less visible
make it less obvious
make it less PAINFULL.
maybe aspirin
maybe panadol
maybe COUGH SYRUP.
its like chicken rice without chicken :)
its like lemonade without lemon :))
its like roti prata WITHOUT THE GRAVY :))
i'm so sorry...

ask me to dream...
i ran out.
not even:
1. LOW dreams
2. WRONG dreams
3. NO dreams
4. VAGUE dreams.
5. ......
(loss of words)...

dun even talk abt the last one
told ya i am too weak
and taking too damn long for my own good.
pls guide me along the path of light...

my walls have crumbled a long time ago
its only a matter of time before something happens
u can feel it....beating within...waiting..watching...
for a window to break thru
and when it does...
i promise u,
it wont be a pleasant sight.
i am the architect of my own demise.

went for tennis
with andre and yuesheng this morning
wasnt tt bad
i was still able to send the ball juz above the net a couple of times :))

ate lunch at this maat cafeteria
saw a few odd looking symbols on the way
on the construction barrier
anyone can tell me wad it stands for?

came across the first one....

then the second....

*ponders*

and the food almost gave me gastric.

hang around to chit chat for sometime
SOMETIME

andre and his vietnamese souvenir.

was planning to leave after tennis
but reminiscence was telling me other wise.
left say...4?
went home quite vexed.
was wondering why....
tt was the least of my worries

fuck
i juz ate a dud cookie
fell into pieces the moment i pick them up
....

came back home
started with a noble plan...
an hour and a half hour later...
i MADE a sand bag!!
ha.
if u dun let me get one then i shall make one.
at least i have a lifeless object to vent my stress/anger now.

i wish....
many things.
many things to happen.
but u see...
its a dream.
no different than a lie.
why u ask?
they all dun happen here.
not in this place.

let me pose u this question...
Wad are we all doing wad we do for?

dun give me the world peace bullshit.

dang tt was much better :)

2005-06-11T01:04:00.000+08:00

at least i managed to wake up for tkd today
i slept much earlier
cos i ran out games to play.
heehee

tkd was fun!!

learnt the basic kicks again for the first part of the training

noticed wad we called a "jj mattress"....
see for urself:

there were more things i found out
ODAC was having a camp
look at the cool tents...

brother...
the one in the middle of the picture
is made out of those construction material lor..
those ppl would use to cover holes in the ground to prevent water from filling them up.
ha.

had sets after tt
those which really drain ur stamina away
fast turning and etc while moving
sux.

sparred again after the training!!
eric's gooood.
basically....
anyone who can bruise my forearms is good enough
after eric and terence
my worst dreams came true.....
ming xiong and yuko tag-team against me.
the worst thing was:
yuko's yellow belt
i know ming xiongs right leg is damn powerful
cos i held his mitt for him.
AAAAAAHHHHHHH
but it didnt turn out so bad though
got a few kicks here and there
and i managed to punch yuko!
not so much of yuko
but i punched someone in sparring!
yay!
sparred over and over again....
ended up sparring against jeanie
with yuko
damn shes good....
wanted to give her a quick right turning
but i overstressed
RIGHT CALF CRAMP!
tt was damn random.
dropped to the ground like a rag doll
had to be dragged out of the arena literally....
ouch.
wad an ending.
ha.
had to apply deep heat to the affected area...
bloody painful.

went for lunch with the team later
at jurong west market
looked and ordered the beef noodles
where darrell said was good
my gosh!
i have nvr eaten such rubbery flesh before!
and its TASTELESS rubbery flesh!
this sounds stupid but...
i love the soup base.

spent some time chatting with my table mates

there were two ladies
who kept approaching ee chuang for her can
she had to turn both down
see wad i mean:

the one on the right is azman (pronounced us-mun) btw...
fellow team mate
he has straight A's for his napfa
tts 30 points ppl (jaw drop)

i turned around after my food...
and saw a model jjcian!

its no other then......
*drumroll* (sarcasm intended)
the president himself!
we are so proud of u wenqing!

went home later
rested a bit
bloody shagged and painful
shins forearms all bruised.

then had tuition after tt.
i loved it this time.
i did twice as many questions!
WOOOHOOO!
*pat on the back*

so now i am back at home
waiting for my inspiration to run out
so i can get to sleep
to prepare for the long day tml.
it juz ran out....
nite ppl!

wtf la..

2005-06-09T23:17:00.000+08:00

why do these things have to keep happening??
honestly getting a bit sick of things now...

joe: i am seriously considering ur neat...proposal.
seems like a perfect solution to my problems :)

slept darn late last night
say....5?
was playing non-stop
then decided to take 3 hr "break"
turns out to be a 8 hr slumber.
only woke up occasionally to read and reply msgs

supposed to go down with the guys but...
wads the use?
i cant get wad i need anymore
and i will only end up spending
which i dun want to

had dinner at kfc
finally get my money's worth!
2 piece ~~kitchen~~ chicken (hee) meal
i chose the breasts
basket sia!
i tell u...
those were the most humungous breasts i have ever seen!!
haha
damn full
i can even feel it in my tummy now.
talking abt tummy
i need to go run soon
tummy>fat arse.
i detest fat arses.

aww man...
decided to tidy up my room
make it easier for transfer of the ownership of my room
i wouldnt want to be inconsiderate, would i?
besides
it wasnt exactly my room in the first place
i hate the way ppl treat me
ignorance, backstabbing, "concern"
i hate the way things cant seem to progress
it sickens me to the core.
i hate the expectations u all have of me
turn it into a wish will u??
i hate the sick feeling everytime when something goes wrong
it juz doesnt...feel right.
i came to many conclusions.
1. the sun is so cold,
2. the stars no longer shine for me,
3. the moon is mocking me at the corner of my eye,
4. the branches of trees are showing their middle-digits,
5. darkness is more comfortable to seek refuge in.
tell me...
am i hallucinating or something?

have tkd in the morning tml
9-12
will be there.

coming to think of it....
next week.
s. o. l. i. t. u. d. e.

breaking down*

A thorn in my side, a chip on my shoulder
A lump in my throat, the size of a boulder
The chill up my spine, can't get any colder
And you wonder why i can't smile

A knot in my gut, an ape on my back
In the heat of the moment, i'm knocked off the track
You drop the ball,i pick up the slack
And you ask me why my hairs gray

Twisting, turning
Losing all sense of yearning
Living and learning
The pressure keeps on burning my soul

I say it's green and then you tell me it's red
Keep your thoughts and ideas
Locked inside of your head
We've got someone
Who can think for you instead
And he sounds just like the last one

Twisting, turning
Losing all sense of yearning
Living and learning
The pressure keeps on burning my soul

Responsible thinkers
Throw caution to the wind
But i find myself
Speaking from within
I can't live my life
Walking on eggshells
To stay on your good side
Using your words
Controlling my life
Can't you see it's my words
That gives you your life
So i hurt your feelings
Well i'm really sorry
But i don't give a shit...No...
Twisting, turning
Losing all sense of yearning
Living and learning
The pressure keeps on burning my soul

dream theater - burning my soul

err...wtf.

2005-06-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

F***!!
i woke up on time today for lessons
BUT
i had a really bad tummy ache the moment i woke up
literally brought me to my knees
this shit has got to stop! (pun intended)
*chuckles*

juz rmbed something tt happened a few days ago abt the:
"cross-road conclusion"
when i was in sch on mon
or tuesday
the day we guys went to jurong west market
blah blah blah
(fast forward to the part where we were walking back to sch)
we crossed the road till the middle portion
where we would wait for the traffic on the second part of the road to clear
yi fan darrell peng chiong and me
walking up so we have lesser distance to cover later
then before i knew it -
right after a few cars passed to produce a clear path
peng chong and yi fan dashed across
then i was thinking:
hmm???
how come its peng chong and yi fan?
not darrell and yi fan...?
not darrell and peng chong...?
and of course....
why didnt I cross?
hmm....
i think it juz speaks alot abt the way we were brought up.
the perception of things tt happen right before our very eyes.
(yeah...half full half empty...)
sounds/looks like a(an) simple/everyday thing....
but i didnt quite understand why it caught my attention.

oh and there was something else tt happened i forgot to blog abt too....
we(joe chris and i) were talking abt stuff
then chris gave this ridiculous website:
http://www.nice-tits.org/tits/great_tit.html
we were like:
"OMG!!!!!"
"CHRIS WAD ARE U UP TO THESE DAYS???
NO WONDER U ALWAYS SEEM SO TIRED!!"
but......to our surprise....
its not a porn link.
go ahead click it and have a good laugh, u have my word:)

argh
i started playing mech commander 2
AGAIN.
still damn fun la.
ppc's still rock:)
not forgetting the my fav pulse lasers:))
i sound like a geek......
CHANGE TOPIC.

MY PARENTS DUN WANT ME TO GET A PUNCHING BAG
i am so disappointed.
i've been saving up since a long time ago
wanted to get it tml
or should i say later.
now i cant spend it on something i need
to prevent myself from venting my anger on the wooden posts to the toilet
looks like nothing can stop me now.

changed my song.
the tune sounds like burning my soul though.
hey dream theater fans out there!
heard tt the new albums nothing like any previous albums
i mean in the bad way.
is it going to be another metallica.....?

for ur comparison i shall upload both songs
so u can see wad i mean:)

2005-06-08T00:49:00.000+08:00

aiyah.
i give up trying to wake up early
it juz doesnt work out for me

did weights before i slept last night
simple bicep curls
so lloooooonnngg since i lifted my fav 10's
phew
they ache like nobody's business
worst thing is
i didnt even managed to do three sets
and i had to throw in the white towel.
pathetic.

today was....
well...
another borin day.
woke up at 10
and missed class
hai.

dunno whether to go for emerge
its like:
i know i will leave the church
its only a matter of time
after church...
my heart and my mind are always at odds.
tell me wad to do.

stayed at home the whole day
played on the com...
blah blah blah
doing all the "boring ppl's stuff"...

then i went for tuition.
at least theres something to do now:)
i juz noticed tt there was something new on the door's window:

(and everyone screams: SO CUUUUTE!!)
i ALSO BOTHERED to take down this dorky photo of my tutor with his ns buddy
BUT
i think its too blurry
no point uploading

had a rather productive tuition session
i did twice my "record"
wadeva. :)
if i told u the exact number....
u wouldnt ask me ANYTHING abt maths

had supper down at the abc hawker
hadnt been there in a long long time.
talked abt lots.
hmm
he mentioned something tts stuck in my mind now.
"its not easy to cherish the things u have..."
hmm
*ponders*

anyway...
i juz got home
talking to eugenia online can be real funny
HAHA
she juz taught me this new swear word:
putumayammasalathosaiplain
difficult to read eh??
dissected:
putu mayam masala thosai plain.
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(wadeva...)
HAHA.

haiz
tts all folks...
i am getting tired.
*waves*

2005-06-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

thank u dear
for the sacrifice u made for me
which brought tears to ur eyes
:)

wad the.

2005-06-06T18:59:00.000+08:00

I WOKE UP LATE TODAY!
AGAIN!
argh
i have to stop this bad habit.

so instead of going to school
where i would probably lose face while creeping to the lt
i stayed home and watched blade 3
which i finally downloaded.
the show's ending sucks
so cliche.
i think an interview with a vampire is still the best vampire show
and i watched half of the whole animatrix series
i like the way the animation is done
varies between anime and cg
provocative colours.

decided to leave for the second maths lesson
after peng chiong smsed me to go down
for pw "meeting"
handed my survey results over
then went for lunch at the jurong west market
with darrell yi fan and peng chiong
yi fans english improved noticeably btw
good effort:)
on the way out we met justin
who i heard went to jp
he was with yuko
and....
he had a haircut
and....
he changed his specs.
i dun mean to offend u
but
u look awful in the new outfit.
had chicken cutlet rice for lunch

entered the lt very late.
only went for an hour's worth of lessons
on the paper it said 2.
weird.
instead of listening
i talked to kah mun
abt life
abt russell peters.
(yummy racist jokes, but i am not racist!)
tt was the last straw
haha
i got her laughing
man u should see her face
i regret to say this but....
i played with derrick's FATS.
i was juz nudging them with my toe cap
haha.
i even got pics:p

oh my....ITS HANGING OVER THE EDGE!!

the proud and gleeful owner - Derrick!

man
it must have took a long time
(yes i know i'm mean)

i am confused with wad to do now
u are way too busy to be talking to me now
u would be too busy to reply my smses
i'd rather not disturb u

its ok
i shall wait
like i always do.

i still get the idea u have more fun with ur frens.

2005-06-06T00:56:00.000+08:00

dang
why do i always feel so used and objectified?

um...wadeva.

2005-06-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

woke up at 12 today
crazy day
had this really really weird dream last night
here it goes:

the moment the dream began,
i was running on this dirt path
with nothing on my left and right
juz plain darkness
discerning how the darkness and the edge of the path meets
was simply too abstract.
there was this pale light at the end of the path
honestly speaking
the light was above the horizon
SUDDENLY
OUT OF NOWHERE
out come ppl dressed in white
i thought they were angels
started filling up the road ahead of me
i could no longer run as fast as i wanted to
i had to slow down
so much so tt
my feet hurt after so many instances where
my foot impacts the clayey soil
soon....
my vision blurred and turned pitch black.
i realised....
i had hit the dirt
back first.
and i woke.
wad. the. hell.

can someone intepret it for me?

i received "breakfast" from u on time
I REALLY LOVED IT!!

IT WAS RIGHT WHERE I WANTED IT TO BE!!!

THX MUM!!!

if only u would know.

invited joe over for a long chat
if u can even call it a chat
talked abt serious stuff
sometimes
i wonder whether my existence here is justified.
i wonder whether they mean wad they say
i wonder whether everything is all worth doing
cos in the end
everything goes back to square one.
i juz dun quite get it.

was talking to zy over the msn today
it's been a long time too.
he has exams for the next few days, so:
GOOD LUCK ZY!!
i am sure u can ace!
like u did for ur 'O' level results:)

come on he came in top three
juz cant rmb which position though=X

we traded questions and answers
btw
to all city harversters:
i heard tt u cant be a spiritual leader if u dun put on make up.
in my opinion
its total bullshit.
sorry if i am too frank with my words.
told zy abt it
he immediately typed back a link
(tts so zy rite??)
http://www.thercg.org/books/tthbm.html
umm
need i say more?

played vampire: the masquerades since then
phew
though its laggy
there were a few noteworthy things
haha!
anyway
thx joe for adding "salt":)

look:

HORSE-RIDING STANCE!!

one two three four ...HIGH 5!!!

*pardon me i know the pics are rather huge

AAARRR!!

2005-06-05T00:38:00.000+08:00

things are starting to go back to normal for me i guess.
time is coming to a slow
seconds tick by like theres lots of it
come to think of it
there are.
only thing is i wont be there for the whole show

AARRRR!!!
juz heard of a close fren's grandma's passing
rest in peace
u would have done many good deeds
to deserve eternal slumber

finally finished my bio tuts
honestly
i think the school is really
"......"
i only enjoy my company
they are the kind of ppl
who will nvr give up on u
nvr despise u
nvr laugh at ur shortcomings
always doing a hell of a job
of embracing a person as a whole.
thx guys
darrell: teh's the joss stick! :P
u all give schooling a new name:)

i think i should stop
with my "so-called" story
apparently NO ONE understands
like always
juz in greater magnitude.
wad do u think?
(YES PLS TAG)

boring.
hey guys
do u all wanna go out sometime?
feel like chilling/tanning/watching hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy (NOT!)/studying
sms me

read this interesting quote:
"Christ died for our sins. Dare we make his martyrdom meaningless by not committing them?"
-Jules Feiffer

ha. go think abt it.
nite.

euphoria:)

2005-06-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

Sleep works wonders for him far beyond imagination. The comfort of the lodging was...amazing. Warmth of dawn set in gradually reaching his bones, urgin him to get on with the day with zeal, for no apparent reason. 5 consecutive raps echoed behind him. "Are you hungry? Would you like some croissants i baked?" Old, frail, but a soothing glow oozed out of her. "Yes, thank you." He helped her with the plate followed by reaching for one. He felt like a feather today...feeling like he could float away...silently...quietly...over vast areas...only coming to a stop after transversing the world 5 times over. He had a interesting chat with the lady, digressing once in awhile for another tasty morsel. He learned that the town he was in was run by a menace, a tyrant. The man in charge was definitely out of hand. Tales of rape and blunder poured out like a furious waterfull from the inn lady's lips. As she was ranting...Loud footsteps rang from the timber stairs. LOUD. "You must hide! Sir Gretty's men cannot see you! GO!" With cat like grace and agility he went in between the planks of the floor, where only darkness loomed. 5 fully armored soldiers with menacing blades stormed through the room door as the sound of crunching wood against the adjacent wall rang clear. "Where is he? Tell me, NOW!" "I do not know of anyone you are looking for sir!" "Are you sure?" "Yes sir u must believe me! I was just in here to do up the room! There was no one before me!" The "leader" of the soldiers bent over and placed a hand on the sheets. "THE SHEETS ARE STILL WARM! AND IT COVERS THE ENTIRE LENGTH! Either you were lying, or you were lying down! No....you werent lying down...your hair is in a neat bun...he IS STILL here! LIARS BELONG IN HE-..." Before he could complete his sentence...a deft blow struck him square on his jaw. He went staggering. "You all will leave the world as quickly as you came in through that door...I will be the last person you should be looking for!" It was all over within seconds. The soldiers were no match for the veteran. "Sorry about the mess I caused...Will come back to repay you in due time!" followed by a leap through the open window into the busy street.

elevation

2005-06-01T12:20:00.000+08:00

The haven was simply divine. He had been longing for one since....a time where turmoil and peace shook hands. The conclusion he made still stands true...Those who can see are blind. Oblivious to the obvious. The homes which they return to every single night. The acquaintances they meet for a cuppa every now and then. The sun which shines upon them...Don't they know.....?? When one has been to places which appear only in dreams, things take a whole new change. Perspective, they say. Facing the window, he noticed raindrops. Now i am sheltered. A smirk appeared at the corner of his lips. The warm candle light emanated from the stand, fading away before reaching the corners of the room. When would i enjoy another moment like this...in a secure room all alone...Somehow it was just so easy to cast away all concerns now. With fatigue setting in like a locust swarm on a wheat field, he extinguished the flame and bade farewell. Tomorrow's always a new beginning.

man.....

2005-05-29T17:30:00.000+08:00

OK
i will put it in the simplest form of English

i need ur shoulder now
but all i am getting is a cold hard pillar.

discovery

2005-05-28T12:19:00.000+08:00

Uneasiness reappeared mercilessly. The inner demon was ready to take over at anytime. He wouldnt even know wad happened. A faint glow in the horizon under the pale moonlit sky. Could it be...? Puzzling indeed...Nobody said it wasnt. He came to a stop just beneath a shaded spot. Ha. Just when he least needed one. Slumping on a shoulder, visions hit his eyes. Friends...once friends...were taken out one by one...all by a force to powerful to comprehend. not pleasant. why? to serve what greater purpose? Do they have to go this way? I can find no reason...no excuse. With his heart reaching a comfortable pace, so did his legs. The faint glow seemed brighter. But he still could not make out what it was. Grinding boots. Overturned mud. Noises in the bushes. Shut up.

recovery. or not?

2005-05-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

The loss greatly agonised his very existence on the face of this earth. He had questioned himself time and time again, over the very essence of life. To him, it was all a cacaphony, a weird cling-clanging in the distance not too far away. Within him, something stang. The ache throbbed like a sore. Death, to him, seemed to answer all the questions of life. How sardonic. If i cant find the answers i want here, then it must be waiting for me on the other side...isnt it? Flashbacks of triumph did not seem to affect anything else...but only proved him right ALL the time. It, too, seemed never ending, possibly a premonition of things to come. He decided to take a long trek to the nearest town to seek shelter, for the basic fact that he has been out in the wild for such a length of time, he just might lose his humanity, leaving him with....nothing. Reluctantly, he lurched forward and plunged into the darkness.

Your #1 Match: ESTJ

The Guardian
You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker.Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them.You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities.Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done!
You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective.

Your #2 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller
You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy.
You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

Your #3 Match: ENTJ

The Executive
You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others.Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise.Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow.You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence.
You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

Your #4 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver
You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.
You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #5 Match: ESTP

The Doer
You are adventurous and risk taking. You act first, think second.You love being the center of attention. Chances are you were the class clown.Competitive, charming, and charasmatic - you have your own code of honor.You live a flexible life, bouncing between a series of activies that interest you.
You would make a great salesperson, marketing director, or entrepreneur.

What's" Your Personality Type?

thx chris. was frigging bored.

repercussions

2005-05-26T23:41:00.000+08:00

The chill of the still night stiffened his joints and lust for death. He had become thirsty for more than he could get from the mortal realm. All that was in his mind was the craving for refuge and a hot meal, to which all was denied to him. You should have given up that notion long ago, he comtemplated. After all, the world was a dangerous place, much too risky. He told himself, he would no longer would he interfere in the matters of worldly men and, yet, he desired as much as they do. Power. And more power. Since eternity long has he been twirled in the unending quest for authoritative, submissive power. Yes. Power. he started to reminiscing - was that the right word to use...about the few moments before the inevitable - begginning. He rested his palms backwards, slowly reclining to a relaxing position...OUCH. The agony coursed through his joint where the blade struck, causing him to leap up to a defensive stance. The intruder and his glares met, each wielding their daggers precariously. A warm sensation pulsated at this knuckle, a gentle yet harsh reminder, quietly whispering to him..How could u let someone within striking distance?? Your mistake would cost us dearly! The duo crossed blades for a brief moment and he took the intruder out with a jab of the arm to his jugular through the struggling arm-lock. He knelt, drenched.

Intruder's motive: Unknown.

He had lived to fight another day.

decision made

2005-05-23T17:19:00.000+08:00

Flurry. Madness. Rush of blood to the head. He could not place it precisely. The calling was too strong. He had stood there long enough. Perharps too long. He produced 3 arrows and embedded where she expected it. Yes, where she expected it. What irony, what sarcasm. A shrill force pierced the heavens, his cue he could leave knowing he would be rewarded greatly. The deed was done, the day is won. Euphoria amounted in epic proportions within and began to tear down the gates to insanity. Evading the clangs of armour, he found himself lying still. Very still. Fatigue soon took its place....His mind told of greater things...greater things unaccomplished. He grunted and the thoughts took off like a hunted hare, never to be seen again, only to be found in another hunters hands before the next meal. Let the nexy day settle itself...amen.

alpha

2005-05-23T03:50:00.000+08:00

he reached for his quiver for the second time. The second time for today. Juz to make sure....he told himself. Nothing could go wrong. It was simple, compared to the other instances where he would enter and exit as quickly as he came. Somehow, something inside him didnt feel so right tonight....Maybe it was juz the occasional jitters? No no...it was worse than that. He could do nothing but wonder....He cautiously approached the flight of stones and took a step. A visage seemed to appear in the incadescent torch by the wall, screaming at him, telling him....telling him....He tried to listen. But there was only the sound of laughter and cheery music, contrary to his thoughts. He tried yet again. Still to no avail. His expression went from sharp to glum. It was yet another setback. Arriving at the top, he peeked thru the keyhole, hoping to see what he needed to see before he could leave this place....a place full of remorse, guilt and cowardice. Or is it not....? With a deft motion and a turn around, he was above all things. Peering down, he saw malice. Deceit. Ignorance. The facade was...Appalling to him. But merry as they were, they were definitely oblivious. Too much. Too awful. There could only be one...

um...give me a reason.

2005-05-22T17:23:00.000+08:00

wth.
life must be going downhill again.

had a run yesterday at sentosa
was some church-held activity
they did a hell of a job
of confusing me.
the day before they called to ask
whether if i am ok with them putting me in biathalon
i was like:
WT!*#&$!
i did my mental prep
and now u want me to swim with commandos
and navy seals!?!?!
out of the question
but i psyched myself to do it anyway.

first
i woke up late
had the whole cell group waiting for me
*so sorry ppl*

upon reaching
they allowed me to choose
wad the hellllllllllll.
didnt want to get wet
so i went for the adventure
hehe

i wandered too far on the red carpet before my wave
and ran along
ouch*
WRONG WAVE.
haha
wadeva.
nobody would notice anyway:p
completed the race and came in third
hell yeah!
felt accomplished
sounds so cliche....rite?

i feel too crappy to complete my post
see ya around

oh yes.

2005-05-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

i am going to be very honest here, now, tonight.

i think i am too selfish and therefore neglect ur needs and ur wants. all u ever wanted was for me to be happy. and all i did was to put down with the littlest of things with the most absurd questions u can ever expect. u did everything in ur capability to please me. u took time off the sleepover during the hols to see me when i was feeling in the dumps over the posting results. u would know when i am feeling down and lend a shoulder for me to cry on. u listened to wad i have to say and changed accordingly. u had to change ur lifestyle so drastically for me but i would complain abt the smallest of things, such as sms reply time. but now i know i am petty, because these things are juz on the surface. if i were to really find out, i would have to look far deeper than tt. and i dun think i have been to tt stage yet, but i will try my best to. after all, i am in love with u. u brought me to places i would have nvr gone with ordinary men. u lend me a listening ear when i least expect it. u didnt laugh or mock me after u heard it. u helped me find the thruth and i all i did was to shove u aside. u told me things tt the ear wasnt supposed to hear. i know u have done things for me against ut very own will to make me happy. apparently, i am too numb with the stresses and the pressures of the society to care abt u. i feel u deserve much much more than how i am treating u now. i am becoming a monster. now tt i know, i will change for u. now its my turn to cheer u up. now its my turn to brighten up ur day. now its the time where u take charge and have a say. i am urs as much as u are to me. u make the decisions and i will follow. no more questions asked.
i hate to repeat myself, but,
i am sorry for the things i have done.
i have awoken now.
and last but NVR the least,
i love u dear.

i didnt mean it.....

2005-05-15T16:55:00.000+08:00

i fuck scum.
i am always doing it.
and i mean ALWAYS
when * makes the effort to do something
i answer * negatively
i doubt u will ever forgive me.

uh....

2005-05-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

haiz
i wished it nvr happened.
its rather upsetting.

anyway
long time since i blogged
its either i am too upset
too busy
too annoyed.

haiz

some ppl juz love to find things to do
u know who u are
enough talk
juz a sentence and my blood is starting to boil

interesting lessons are slowly dying off
tests
pw
stress
expectations
all coming at one go
how to have fun and get things done at the same time?
getting tough
i think bio test was manageable
while chem is a screw up
will fail definitely
juz how good or bad
good pass? bad pass??
time is flying now
look at the time....
its already MAY.
not march.
not april.
but MAY.
haiz
theres only one sure thing i know:
time will only pass faster.
good or bad......
u decide.

sigh.

2005-05-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

wad do u know
BIAATCH.
close to nothing
only enough for u to rmb ur own pathetic name
u even need a short form
LOSER.
dun need another person to judge
like anyone should in the first place.

FUCK OFF

pls come and go quick

2005-05-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

i need more sleep!
slept for 5 hrs for the past 2 nites
have bloodshot eyes
went to sentosa to celebrate shermaines bd
HAPPY BD!!
phew
fun. :)
played in the sun till the sand got too hot
then tanned
played volleyball till my forearms are bruised
esp the left one
u can actually see the mini-tiney blood vessels tt are being burst
appear as small red specks on my arm
was so bloody shagged
tt i fell asleep on the bus
*THUD*
my head whacked the glass window
and i decided not to fall asleep anymore
*ouch*

haiz
i am going to be single again for the coming week
:(

Ooo yeah....

2005-04-30T23:15:00.000+08:00

felt good today
nope i wasnt refering to the sleep part
only slept for 5 hrs last nite
had things to settle

church rocked
i like the message today
felt good abt another thing too
managed to say grace properly for a table
my first time lor:)
hee
sounds damn wrong
the times when i did say grace i used to stumble and fumble
it was much easier juz now:)

tired sia
as per usual
me eyes are drooping close
so good nite fellas

shut up dude

2005-04-29T23:51:00.000+08:00

INSENSITIVE.

i dunno wad to say.......

2005-04-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

heehee.
had some serious guy talk today
hmm.
i think u can say we are really close already
talking abt stuff ranging from ***** to *****
dun bother guessing wad they are
they dont exactly consist of 5 letters

phew.
tired.
ran to sch juz now
its been a long time.......
smelled some sickly sweet smell along the way
it rang a bell immediately.
FRANGIPANI.
my pri sch used to have alot of those around the field
i swore i ran faster
cos i heard footsteps too.

yippee!
tkd tml!
and i have my gi!
heehee
fun fun fun
gotta sleep early tonight
nites!

GOOOD. :)

2005-04-27T21:20:00.000+08:00

yup
muscles did ache today
left bicep and right lat
weird combi

HAHA
we finally cracked intelligent jokes
three main actors:
darrell...yi fan...and the rest of the guys
yi fan: hey guys! let me tell u all a dirty joke!
darrell: yi fan telling dirty joke? u spilled the coke on the bed ah???
yi fan: NOOO!!
darrell: then wad....the gene mutated is it???
rest of the guys: *wild whooping laughter*

but he got to say the joke in the end
which i had to admit
its good
in terms of yi fan s standard
*AYE. AYE. AYE....*

yay!
i completed my hmwk for tml yesterday
so i am free now!
can sleep earlier finally
phew.
a huge load of my back
tml going to complete the bio prac
for submission the next day
tkd!!:)
fun fun fun

have fun ppl
signing off

PHEW.

2005-04-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

wa
today shiok sia
pc rocks again
:)
ran one warmup round
then up and around the grandstand
then one round around the track again
thrice.
20 pull ups
5 sets of 4
i was the only one who did all unaided:)))
then one round again
followed by 20 push ups
thrice.

wow.
feel damn fit/good now
will have muscle aches for sure

haiz
security talk
chip off the old block
put the army up so high
tell me something tts new and intresting at the same time pls
PLS.

argh
feeling very very tired now
wanna sleep soon
hmmm
juz received a pic from aaron
will upload it when i have the time

k tts it folks

crash and burn

?!!?

2005-04-25T21:31:00.000+08:00

hmmm
i love sch!!!
AS PER USUAL!!
SOMEBODY STOP ME!!
oh yeah

today was quite a day though
ups and downs for 2 of my buddies
dun worry dudes
those things will bother u....NOT.

justin: give it sometime to grow
i am sure it will work out
if only both of u wanted it to:)
rick: dun worry la the cher juz picking on u
wear higher next time then can already

talked to peishan on the way home today
its been quite a long time
talked abt....stuff.
yeah. stuff.

felt really hot when i reach home
not the sweating hot
my body juz heats up
very uncomfortable
even when the aircon is on

doing bio tut on lipids
lucky i done them in innova b4
if not i wont dare to sleep during lecture:)

cya guys
btw congrats to the rugby team
JJ vs. SR
22-5
eat shit!

hmmm..wonders

2005-04-24T18:43:00.000+08:00

shit man
i woke up late for grading this morning
woke up at the time i am supposed to meet the rest at tiong bahru mrt
lol
i was like:
"huh how come the sky so bright and the clock reads 7...."
the next moment i am in half gi attire in the cab and on the way to radin mas cc
crazy taxi driver
nth also press horn
early in the morning
*BEEP!! BEEEEPPP!!*
stupid.
almost started this race with another car
the worst thing is it happened along keppel road
straight stretch of road
i thought anything could happen on this fine day
i had to do stretching on my own after i reached there
had to bow to shelley
first time late for tkd
shouldnt and wont happen again
prac pattern already we change into full gi
then proceeded to the foyer
wa lau eh
wad i so next was...well....disturbing
small little cute cute indian girl
RED belt.
her height only up to my waist lvl
RED belt.
her mum was tying her belt for her
scary sia
then there was this giant
1 puum
the belt....sexy
our turn came after the girls
only one guy didnt kihap with us
u know who u are........
ever heard of team work??
ego maniac
hope can get double promotion
jump jump jump!!

took group photos after the thing was over
then went tbp for breakfast
or lunch
ate ya kun
they bloody well mixed up the orders la
i ate toast when i paid for french toast
was wondering where did the egg go
but i heck care then juz started eating
darn.

spent the rest of the day at home playing diablo 2
boring.....
going to finish the game
AGAIN
going to study later at night
read up some stuff
think abt the coming week
yup stuff like tt
haiz
workload is increasing
and i dunno when it will stop

shall end here
and leave to fight another day

hmm...u tell me

2005-04-23T23:38:00.000+08:00

haiz.
HAIZ.

tired la
today training i feel the pull
literally
thighs all gone
interesting training today
at least i got to kick those mitts again
need a pair of tkd shoes
my knee hurts after practising those kicks
tml grading!
pissing in my ~~pants~~ gi:)
haha

today was.....
i dunno how to put it man
full of ups and downs

the moon seems listless today
wide..round..lonely.
reflection of the situation.....
u tell me.

angels and demons is kinda demonic
four cardinals being slaughtered by a satanic brotherhood?
and the papal elections were juz being held
wad an irony
dan brown loves to poke fun

k i better go sleep already
have to wake up at 6 for the grading
*waves*

rrrrrriippppss

2005-04-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

getting sick of jj's english standards.
stupid chem lecturer.
simply annoys me.
"look at the sua-ck-cher (structure) of the..."
"those are call(ed) lee-lo-ka-liced (delocalised) electrons..."
wa lau eh.

tkd today was fun:))
i think i will wake up with muscle aches everywhere tml morning
lower body will get it
so must bring deep heat tml
did so many kicks
then i nearly forgot
i cracked my left big toe nail
but it didnt bleed
dun bother lor....

jj talentime.
so ex
so limited spaces.
bragging about singing english songs(??)
and having 4 out of 6 J1s in the vocal category(??????)
acoustics of the hall not say like perfect
pay 10 more can go watch a world-class performance at the esplanade

feeling damn sleepy now
but got hmwk to complete
if i dun complete tonight
i have to pia some night
and it will definitely not be tml night
surely no mood one
haiz
sometimes i wonder
wad if there was no music
no tunes...beats...rhythms wadsoeva..
boring.

got tkd prac tml
last one b4 the grading
hope i can get double promotion:)
nites ppl!

argh

2005-04-21T20:01:00.000+08:00

argh!
uber tired now
wish i could sleep now
if i do
i wont be able to sleep at night
and i will STILL feel tired tml morning
haiz
nvm

sch was...hmmm.....
fun as per usual?:)
love my class guys
although there are like only 5 of them?
as for the girls....
no comments.
or rather
cant comment.

learnt the first pattern behind the lt5 today
wa lau
crash course sia
must practise later
sun is the grading already
btw
getting my gi tml:)))
hehe
lucky the belt wont have my name
if not so ps
haha
sat also have practise
looking forward to double promo
dun need to waste so much time
if i could halve the lvl-ing up
i will have more time for other things
tts rite
other things:)

have to complete:
gp 800 word essay
P I first draft
maths tut
another article for gp

sian

not enough time la.......
going to start doing my essay now
lucky tml no tuition
then i can have more time for stuff

come to think abt it
one week passed so fast
one thing i know
it will only pass faster:)))

oooooo....

2005-04-20T16:25:00.000+08:00

haha!
juz saw something
i have only 2 things to say:
1. dun even think of trying
2. u should have known better

anyway
i always feel that i am missing out on something
but i dunno wad tt thing is
haiz
its quite confusing

looking forward to tkd on fri
first session:)
see how far i can go at the end of 2 yrs
looking forward to tt adidas uniform......
k i go back to my hmwk
got chem assignment tuts and revision
cya

phew

2005-04-19T19:42:00.000+08:00

today....
not bad la
at least got laugh in sch
phew
very tired
i guess wad they said of jj's pc is true:
TOUGH.

btw.
my com is in my room now!!
hehe
wireless internet
lcd monitor
room comfort
ah~
:)

did set training today
1st set: monkey bar
2nd set: frog jumps
3rd set: 30 sit-ups
4th set: 20 deltoid lifts/arm
heres comes the part:
after every set we have to run 1 round
400m
tts excluding one warm up round
argh
v long nvr do sets
good exercise i guess

decided to join tae kwon do
cos i know 2 of the guys who joined
they are in my class
one black belt
the other noob like me:p
yup
training every fri
b4 tuition
optional training on sat
oh did i mention
they challenged me to do a split
first time i tried
argh!
luckily i went low enough
enough for the black belter to say:
tts good for a noob

okieokie
basic summary
tts all folks
enjoy

beat. it. haha no la juz jk:)

2005-04-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

tired sia juz came back from church
haha
we had a lot of fun in the cafeteria:)))
playing "shin master" was fun
leung (is tt how to spell ur name?) was the champ
high score!!
he play until so retarded
no wonder can win

anyway

woke up late today
finished my hwmk though
didnt want to wake up too early today
i told my body to sleep in
but it still wont listen
i actually plan
i need to wake up at 9
BUT
woke up at 7
then 730
then 8
i got pissed..with myself apparently
and woke up at 845 finally.
the worst part:
i walked over to the alarm clock
and switched the alarm off b4 it even rang;)

oh did i mention?
i am in bikila
hee
we need to get a pair of shades
for events like sports day etc.
heehee
our class guys planning to get oakleys:)
heeheehee
as i am the vice class chair
i am the house rep
heeheeheehee
proud to be in jj...i guess:)

haiz

got so bored i started playing diablo 2
AGAIN.
ok i gtg
need to sleep
cya guys

was i going to die?

2005-04-13T21:06:00.000+08:00

haha.

today was...well...weird.

i fainted for the first time in my life.

blood donation.
deadly silence.
asked my fren to forge signature (hee hee)
on consent form
after getting permission from mum of course
went thru all the surveys..questionnaires and wad-nots..
blood test *prick*
sat in bench.
relaxed.
nurse cleans "wound".
then injects anaesthetic.
slight prickly pain.
tts all.
"when the blood is being transferred..
read this piece of -..."
BLACKOUT.
haha
wth la
didnt freak out
didnt flinch
then faint.
good xp though
besides the fact tt my class ppl were laughing at me:)

anyway

thx for the help S6!!
esp justin val rick and ching ting:)

lol.
wad a day.

damn.

2005-04-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

damn u ppl u are always annoying me.

i share things and u give me sorrow in exchange who are u to do this to everyone in ur life i dun give a fuck whether she likes u or not u only got to know her for such a short period of time and u are obsessed take a good look at urself then come crawling back to me u dun deserve my additional attention

u are such disappointment.

wad do u know u only intepret the way things are from the surface and go around opening tt big gap of urs u are in no position to comment so juz shut the fuck up will ya u are starting to annoy me wad do u know talk to me u were never in one seriously only going around oogling u know they are all out of ur league at least i know my limits now tell me whos more pathetic

shut up. now.

it IS the best.

2005-04-02T23:45:00.000+08:00

WOOOOHOOOOOO!!
orientation part 2 rocks!!
honestly i have nvr seen the OG i am in
bond so closely b4:)
so
thx guys
for letting me lead
for cooperating
for the seasons in the sun
but the wine and the song like the
seasons have all gone:(

BEN

freaking tired now la

going to sleep soon

i miss my comfy bed

slept on the hall floor without a pillow for 2 nights

*ouch*

back hurts alot too

haiz

tml still v busy

got dance prac

cos all we fairsians are going to join.....

JJ TALENTIME!!

heehee

then got swimming

going to be quite tiring la

k i gtg

ciao ppl

thx once again OG 13!:)

*GIVE ME ONE BUAY-SONG CLAP!!!*

heehee...cool....

2005-03-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

WOohoO!!!
juz got stoned
4 cups of gin
47%
lucky with coke mix
if not jia sai already
i can feel my veins hitting hard on me temples
man
next time not so much
feel float-y now

anyway

try not to go jj if possible
can u imagine
three grown men
on the stage
briefing 500+ new intake students
talking among each other
abt whos more handsome
who plays better soccer
who teaches better
IN BROKEN ENGLISH!!
&!@&#....
tts rather disappointing...
but besides tt
quite fun la:)
looking forward to the *lessons*
not the *camp*
btw
the camp bloody ex
88 bucks!!
...

i wanna learn tennis
need racket
i also need a new sch bag
my sling bag will get heavier
and when it does
my shoulder hurts:(
going to ask my parents for the money:)
k i gtg sleep
tml still have gym
nvr go in a long long time
ciao

wild whooping laughter pls

2005-03-21T21:41:00.000+08:00

'omo' came up beside me and asked me something related to 'ahg0peni' and 'lmo'. she started on asking why i am so busy all the time and i knew she was going to scold already. yup and as predictable as she always is. then comes the part. she asked why lmo cant let wad ahg-peni did to him rest. after all. lmo's a christian. i was like. oh so christians are immortals now is it? capacity to keep forgiving and forgiving regardless of the harm done and sacrifices made. she followed up by describing us youths as immature as we are without the ability to let things pass. i then tot: who are u to judge the things tt happened between us? u obviously dont know wad ahg0peni did. and therefore definitely not in a position to comment OR judge. and pls stop telling me wad to do. i know better. at least better than someone....

back to reality.

tmls the posting results
going to appeal straight away i dun get wad i hope for
shouldnt be too hard la
pieces of paper work magic like no ones business:)
and vice versa unfortunately:(

i dun really have any plans for tml
but i dun feel like playing pool
sorry watson and hong shing

i feel like rotting tml
actually for ever la
so sick of studying
i wish someone invented a memory aid machine
dun need to spend so much time memorizing
after all
we will grow old and die
but i dun want to die juz yet
want to enjoy the positive things first

man.....

2005-03-18T10:20:00.000+08:00

too soon its all over so quickly
tell me its a blessing
or a premonition of things to come

still so friggin bored
cant find anything to do

gosh

stoning most of the time
read finish da vinci code finally
creepy crap
i guessed someone did his research
and lotsa linking:)

haiz
guit is out of my league now
simply have no time
jireh
u maybe right
no jc guitarist is ever gonna be good
maybe not now la
juz...lost touch

later still got tuition
c maths sux
dun understand lor
inadequate practice questions

aiyah
if only i could.....
throw everything away
or press the escape button
and click 'restart'
things would turn out much much better

there is none like u*

.

2005-03-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

As It Was Written:

"Even though I had been close frens of his for a long time, i really do not know the reason why he did tt. He was cheerful and full of smiles when i joked with him. He even joked back. I dun understand why he did tt. He had a really bright future ahead. At least he was better off than me."

"Juz another case of bad decisions made i guess. They are always like that. Say one thing but actually mean another. It can get really annoying at times but i think it should be ok if we spend time to get used to it. They juz need time to prove their worth. Besides tt they are nothing worth spending time on."

"I cant believe it! It was as if I knew wad was going to happen way back. WOW i can mind read! Impressive eh!"

"He is definitely not fit. Not only he didnt prove himself, he came unprepared and wasted my time. I shall not allow anymore of this to happen. Rather irritating. Juz another prick. Like i did something wrong before tt i should receive this kind of torture every year."

soon...soon.

ahem yeah!

2005-03-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

heehee. i guess it would take more than tt to pry things out of me.

thx it was fantastic i nvr knew it could happen
u showed me more than i tot was possible
lighten the loads and brightens my day and nite
feel so indebted at times

argh
i hate the feeling
as if someone pulled the life support plug

~~i love u most of the time~~ ~~i love u everytime~~ ~~i love u time and time again~~ i love u all the time:)

ich will, dass es für immer bis zum Tag dauert, ich sterbe*

tell me wad u see

2005-03-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

someone give me something to do i am losing it soon
~~the blade is an arms reach away~~

so easy to let go so hard to bring it back up
oh god pls*

can u give me a break and see tt i need to be left alone
away from the hectic life
away from responsibilities
away from decisions
pls ask me sometime later juz not now
i have no answers for u
u say u will stop nagging
but u always come back with tt prep talk of urs
liars.
and finally,
can u listen to me for once?
am i not speaking the truth?
look back
start thinking and linking
u juz have to ask
i will gladly spell it out for u

i am so sorry
i should have kept it shut
i feel like a jerk sometimes
kick me will u
i....dunno wad to say except
i am so sorry*

darn

2005-03-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

darn i guess that is going to sting for quite awhile.
luckily jc is two years.
if not.
im dead.
guess i have to start earlier next time.

for now,
i think i will juz hope and pray i can appeal succesfully.

screeeaammmmm

2005-02-27T20:41:00.000+08:00

man when i tot taking the exam was bad enough..the anxiety is killing me..but on the other hand this is the first time i studied so hard in my life..so i would be 80% satisfied of the results i get..hoping for the best(like duh)..i only wonder wad kind of results i would get..

got the whole of the following week free(i think its part of the school's plan to make us feel good to stay) so i am going to make use of the chance to do more things..haiz i also need new things desperately..the sole of my track shoes and sandals are screwed and i lose small change cos my wallet doesnt have a secure coin compartment..hope i get enough cash from my parents..if not i have to dig back into my ang pow cash..
*crosses fingers and hopes*

*OH YEAH!!*

die

2005-02-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

it has come
whether we like it or not
to prove our worth
should we give it any thought?

so much time spent
thinking talking walking
so much time went
slacking listening trying

wait, wait for the news
clinging on
here they come
moving on*

stoned and drunk

:)

i seriously doubt it..dun ask me why.

tired

ooooo

i wish...i wish...shut up.

aiyah...

ouch.

throw me a life-buoy...pls?

urgghh...

restore me...pls..

at least its better...

talk to me....

burn in hell for ur sins.....

wad have i become?

dang tt was much better :)

wtf la..

err...wtf.

wad the.

um...wadeva.

AAARRR!!

euphoria:)

elevation

man.....

discovery

recovery. or not?

Your #1 Match: ESTJ

Your #2 Match: ISTJ

Your #3 Match: ENTJ

Your #4 Match: ESFJ

Your #5 Match: ESTP

repercussions

decision made

alpha

um...give me a reason.

oh yes.

i didnt mean it.....

uh....

sigh.

pls come and go quick

Ooo yeah....

shut up dude

i dunno wad to say.......

GOOOD. :)

PHEW.

?!!?

hmmm..*wonders*

hmm...u tell me

*rrrrrriippppss*

argh

oooooo....

phew

beat. it. haha no la juz jk:)

was i going to die?

damn.

it IS the best.

heehee...cool....

wild whooping laughter pls

man.....

.

*ahem* yeah!

tell me wad u see

darn

screeeaammmmm

die

hmmm..wonders

rrrrrriippppss

ahem yeah!